Saturdays

Well now. Yesterday was great. Enjoyed time with Mrs. Ninja, had a great kids class, and a new student in woman's self defense.

I tell ya, kids class has to be one of my favorite times of the week, though maybe the most exhausting. The energy level of the kids is truly wonderful, and it seems every week, they want to do more, try harder, and get hungrier for the "meat" of martial arts. It is my job; however, to make sure that they can "chew" the little pieces of "meat" that I give them. Sure, it is a lot of games, but what they may not realize is that the games are geared to train responses. Blocks, dodges, jumps, crawls, rolls and so on. I taught these little ones the art of "shrimping" which will become a regular part of warmups. Shrimping is very useful when one starts to do groundwork/grappling.

My friend from a major "legacy" airline attended class yesterday. It was a very light workout from my perspective, but I could tell there were parts that started to push her a little. Hammerfist drills and combos were about as intense as it got for that class.

Came home and the Mrs. and I went out for dinner. Chinese! Woot! I am so glad her "morning sickness" is all but gone. It is sooooo good to see her enjoying things again. Anyway, it is Sunday, and I need to get ready for church. Bro. Maki is preaching both services today and I cannot wait. I am going to pull my Sunday School class this morning to hear what the Lord has given Bro. Maki to share with us. Woot!

PTSD?

There is rain in the area. I knew this yesterday when my hand started hurting. Dull throbbing is a couple of places, sharp stabbing in my stump. Then today, on the way to work, something happened that has not happened in several monts. Flashback.

Randomly, I have experienced the undesired recall of the happenings durring and immidately following the accident. (That chewed up my right hand) The memories are thrust into the forefront of my mind, and it seems as if I am reliving the past. The pain, uneasiness, and uncertainty floods back. Nightmarish.

Today's flashback was the day after the accident. There were nurses that were having me perform certain tasks, like walking up steps and getting in and out of a bathtub. This was to assess my coordination and ballance to see if there were any lingering brain/spine injuries. I hope I need not express how I felt about these tests, while I was drugged up.

Anyway... that is a sample of what this ninja faces every day. Could I have some form of PTSD? I do not know... it is a possibility.

Guess what I just saw!!!

Run for your lives! The White Death has returned to Ohio! Yes, I saw a little bit of snow falling this morning around 0900.

Starting to get anxious

In a good way. I can't wait to hold this growing bundle of joy. I can't wait to watch cartoon movies, and read bedtime stories. I am really looking forward to the adventure of fatherhood. Boy or girl, this is going to be great. I have just been thinking about it a lot lately, and as huge of a responsibility it is, I am ready. I want to hold the baby in church while singing. A million other life experiences are running through my mind. Just know that I am looking forward to this.

Please Pray, urgent!

My aunt, Chrystal Porter, is dying. Severe COPD in one lung, and a large cancerous tumor in the other. The doctors estimate less than 2 weeks.

My closest friend, Kamala, is suffering complications from brain surgery. Her sodium levels crashed.

Me, I am straining... Holding together for now.

What kind?

Since I got the news that I am going to be a Dad, I have been pondering the question... What kind of Dad do I want to be? Taking into account my long list of personality flaws, I worry that I will be overbearing, or maybe too lenient. I wonder if the little one will be proud of their black belt sunday school teaching dad, or if I will be one of those geeky dads. (I am more than capable of becoming either one) I worry about my temper. I worry about being able to supply for my little family.

Something I neglected to blog, I was in a car accident this past week. My little civic was rear ended, the frame is slightly bent and I expect the lady's insurance will total the car. This puts me in a bind for several reasons. I just bought a motorcycle a few months ago, and that recent loan has made it more difficult for me to get a good deal through my bank. Also, with a baby on the way, I need a bigger car... a 4 door. I am looking at a Grand Prix right now.... Anyway... additionaly, Mrs Ninja is feeling very nausiated still and that worries me. Kamala had her surgery as well, and is not doing well. Add all of this up and you have a very tense, barely held together me.

Anyway, I have done a lot of whining here today, and I thank my readers for putting up with it. Please leave comments on how I can keep it all together.

Announcement!

Most of my readers (both of you) already know... but to the reader who may stumble randomly upon this blog, I am going to be a father!

Woot! I will have the first ultrasound pics up soon. I have them on my home computer, but am posting elsewhere. Anyway, this will be our first. I am uber excited. It is kind of surreal... not the baby part... the fatherhood part. I have always liked kids, and enjoyed teaching kids. It is the me being 100% responsible for another life. I know it has been happening for thousands of years, but it is the first time for me.

Also, I think I have an idea of the class schedule for the next few months. Things continue to flow, time moves on, and in other news.....

Kamala is seriously considering coming to Ohio (in the undetermined future, for an undetermined lenght of time)! She can't wait to see the ninja baby, and is already talking about wanting to babysit.

Ok, it is getting late and I must be going.